Retrolust: Bad Reception
Written by Garrett Kai and Trevor Denounce
All Lyrics © 2007 Nethertune Records
Track List:
- Whisper to Me
- Paranoia Manifesto
- Young Lovers
- Commercial Mentality
- Black & Blue
- Crossing Guard
- Hell Inside
- Empty & Against the World
- Signals & Sinners
- Cranberry Holocaust
01. Whisper To Me
I assemble all the fragments I have of you in my mind
I start to see you here beside me
I can see that I'm alone; I'm sitting all by myself
But I can feel you in my heart
To walk with you and touch your tears
To laugh with you and hold your fears
Would be a dream come true to me
But I'm awakened; I'm awaked by mortality
It keeps on telling me that this dream wasn't meant to be
I swear smell your scent lingering in every room
But my hallways are all empty
I cleared a space inside my closet to make some room for your things
But your possessions never show
Whisper to me how you love me
Look me in the eyes
Hold me closer while you kiss me
How I wish you were for real
I imagine holding your hands
Up against my face
Soft as silk, Sweet as roses
How I wish you were for real
Every photo frame is staring back at me with those eyes
But you're never in the picture
I remember all my late night conversations with you
The echoes of your voice were hollow
To walk with you and touch your tears
To laugh with you and hold your fears
Would be a dream come true to me
But I'm awakened; I'm awaked by mortality
It keeps on telling me that this dream wasn't meant to be
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02. Paranoia Manifesto
The windows are covered, I stay up at night
To make me feel safer I turn off the lights
I cut with a razor instead of a knife
And count all the match heads and watch them ignite
Dismantled my TV and sorted the parts
On a picture of Elvis aimed up at the stars
My tenth cup of coffee I hold out my arms
And shake off the loneliness plaguing my heart
I read the phonebook
So I don't talk to strangers
I'm fearing that they'll tell me
What I already know
I built a satellite
So I can talk to my god
I'm hearing all the voices
Arguing in my head
I think the world is not listening
Or maybe I'm whispering but all the words don't mean a thing
I think I'm dreaming when I see the hell we're in
So I lock the door and throw away the key
The newspaper headlines don't tell me a thing
So I self-medicate for the comfort it brings
Flipped over the mattress to gather the springs
And ripped off the fabric to tape on the wings
Emergency blankets to block out the rays
Its thick insulation will last me for days
No answer from upstairs I'll just have to wait
Until I can find a way out of this maze
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03. Young Lovers
Late September but there's chills in their eyes, in their eyes
Sitting in a tree house way above the grass
They don't know if it will last
They're kissing for the first time like all the girls and boys do
It's what they do
But the height is not what they fear; no, it's love
Her pulse is racing like a train,
His palms are sweaty like the rain
They're getting closer and closer closer closer closer
They're getting closer and closer together
It's natural, this attraction
It's natural pure satisfaction
Young lovers meeting for the first time
Young lovers... it's no crime
Young lovers meeting for the first time
Young lovers... it's no crime
Can't remember because he's lost himself in her thighs
Brushing up against each other slowly careful not to move to fast
They're touching for the first time like all the girls and boys do
It's what they do
But the friction is not they fear, no it's love
Her pulse is racing like a train,
His palms are sweaty like the rain
They're getting closer and closer closer closer closer
They're getting closer and closer together
It's natural, this attraction
It's natural pure satisfaction
Young lovers meeting for the first time
Young lovers... it's no crime
Young lovers meeting for the first time
Young lovers... it's no crime
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04. Commercial Mentality
I try to find myself in everyone I meet
Can't seem to get a grip on who I am or what to be
I entertain the thought that I do not exist
Bu then I look around and here I am and I get pissed
I turn on the TV, I drive myself insane
'Cause I keep flipping the channels I can't find anything
A lot of babble of crap that doesn't interest me
More advertisements than programs a fucking travesty
There are reality shows with people eating their shit
And Jerry's dumb hoes always fighting and then flashing their tits
Two wealthy teens on a farm fuckin' round with the horses
People in sports pimping out for endorsements
From ugly to beautiful just what would you do
People mangle their bodies as entertainment for you
And then at ten P.M. you get what's called the news
In between all the commercials you can watch the abuse
With knives and guns mutilating each other
You got sisters buying weapons and then killing their brothers
Mothers cooking kids inside of their ovens
Rich superstars telling us they are above us
They get away with murder and get all the attention
Stockbroker motherfuckers still collecting their pensions
Schools shutting down because of government fraud
Super-fucking-mega-omni-corporate gods
We are inches away from reinstating the draft
Politicians and their children safe at home as they laugh
Brave new Americans coming home in a bag
World domination it's all making me gag
You've got your mind on me
Commercial mentality
You've got your mind on me
And I've got your money in my pocket
I try to turn it off but I can't find the switch
These electrical signals are causing me to twitch
Is this reality? It couldn't be this bad
And if it is I just can't bear it 'cause it makes me mad
I turn off all the lights and then I go to bed
I just hope they were listening to all the shit I said
So good night my friends and turn off your TV
Because it fucks with your perception with reality
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05. Black and Blue
Parking tickets are waiting outside
I forgot to pay the meter
Just like the fable goes
We're dancing on tiptoes
Only a doorframe between us
I forgot to pay the meter
I don't know what to say
But know I'm here anyway
A single teardrop falls into your cup
And you watch it disperse through several waves
Of feelings and regrets
So put another sugar in
Honey it's alright
The maroon car our silent trips
Highways grew between
I couldn't hear the steady beat
We danced with unstable feet
Photo booth smiles are what I remember
But I paved this rugged road
So I slink to the halls floor
And I wish for something more
The bitter taste on your tongue darling, that's us
And how we've come undone, no mixture will do
No matter how we try we always end up
Black and blue, black and blue
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06. Crossing Guard
You turned off the streetlights
How am I to find my way home?
I've got no maps or directions
Each step echoes indiscretion
I ponder your remark
And everything that spells your name
I'm wondering in the dark
Where every corner looks the same
It's well after midnight
How am I to find my way home?
Running Down these sideways streets
Bundled up like lover's sheets
I ponder your remark
And everything that spells your name
I'm wondering in the dark
Where every corner looks the same
There are to many, to many sidewalks
My feet don't know which way to go
So, will you tell me which way to go?
It seems like I'm walking in circles
The signs warned of the road ahead
I should've known by the lives we led
The ground we covered left me insecure
But I'll keep walking until we find a detour
I ponder your remark
And everything that spells your name
I'm wondering in the dark
Where every corner looks the same
There are to many, to many sidewalks
My feet don't know which way to go
So, will you tell me which way to go?
It seems like I'm walking in circles
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07. Hell Inside
The mask I hold on my face, it can't hide everything
He pulled the trigger in me and sent me tumbling
Now my breath turns to steam before my very eyes
My rage goes up in a blaze before I realize
I've lost control of the hell that burns inside of me
The demons under my skin are finally breaking free
I try to wrestle them down, but they bite at my heart
I've got to keep my mind from falling apart
I don't know how long I can hold myself together for you
Everyday my veins are churning
A ticking time bomb waiting to explode
I can't escape this constant yearning
Or the wrath these feelings will unload
Your compassionate words are like the key to me
To keep the animal locked up so that no one sees
I tried starving the beast to make it waste away
Instead it grows stronger in my day by day
There is someone to blame for my insanity
It doesn't change my fate in this reality
My god I've tried to move on, to change my destiny
But I cannot escape this hell inside of me
I don't know how long I can hold myself together for you
I think it was a mistake
To bring you into my fate
Between the layers of love
I try to bury the hate
But every step that we take
I know I'm closer to breaking
So much is at stake
Our love is only sedation
I don't want to bring you down into my shame
I'm a restless soul without reprieve
I don't have a way to break the devil's chains
Not even your love can save me
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08. Empty and Against The World
My mother sold my heart for a pack of cigarettes
I don't know how to fall apart and I have no regrets
I am a lonely boy but there's no need for sympathy
Cause there is nothing in this world that I would rather be
I wasn't like the other girls and boys
'Cause my head was filled with fantasies
Wrought with violent tendencies
I tried to hurt them while they played with their toys
But to me it was a killing spree
They wonder what was wrong with me
My father's belt left an impression that I won't forget
Some people say that I am living in his silhouette
But it's not the anger that found a home inside my chest,
It's the apathy that's built up like a bulletproof vest
I spent my first date squirming in the back seat
Cause my head was filled with fantasies
Of Sexual activity
Slipped her a pill as I unzipped my deceit
But don't blame it on society
The E.M.P.T.Y. in me
Here I am,
Empty and against the world
I couldn't focus my attention on the company
To busy borrowing our customers identities
No guilty conscience 'cause I'm the son of tragedy
I wear my crown of hate and lies for all the world to see
I smiled at grandpa in the hospital room
'Cause my head was filled with fantasies
Of turning off his air machine
I flipped the switch to feed the hate that consumes
Cursing him between my teeth
Watching him attempt to breath
There used to be two sides of me at war,
I reflect on memories as I pass each floor,
I'm staring at a monster in these metal doors
But I've come to terms with what I was put here for
Washing both of my hands
Of the thing that I am
Watching over my lambs
As the king of the damned
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09. Signals and Sinners
Honey we are finished
I can't hold on to one stem
The thorns are breaking my flesh
And the flower is already dead
Take all of your SOS and then take some more
I'll make you fuck; yeah I'll make you fuck
Like the party that's already gone
You hang your manners with a clip on
Don't sweat out what we seek
What's in your heads is open wide
So why are we always trying to hide
Baby this is over
You're stupid and you bore me
A constant nagging headache
And this thing ought to be hard
Take all of your SOS and then take some more
I'll make you fuck; yeah I'll make you fuck
Like the party that's already gone
You hang your manners with a clip on
Don't sweat out what we seek
What's in your heads is open wide
So why are we always trying to hide
In the bedroom
Your hands on the pillow
Your face in the tears now
You bought the lies
Lost and forgotten
There's no receipts baby
Lets cut the cord
Anywhere
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10. Cranberry Holocaust
Facts become anxious, like eyelids blinking in the dark
All eyes on me, because dawn is a liar
Dangerous curves tempt my fingers
I follow with my eyes and walk on nails
And it feels so
Quiet not to wake you in your bed
Because I know the dreams begin when I let you in
The ailing crime, how we're failing time
Keep in mind the stars were designed
So they'll come abstract like the weary-eyed fact
That I talk to the world with velvet words
That are smothered by a pillow
Why did I let it go for so long?
Comfort becomes idle like the rest of them
Feathers blocking fate
Inconsistent rate of floating in between me being
God, a god or an insect
I'm standing in a holocaust
Feathers fall in my holocaust
My dreams of cranberry holocaust
Sweet cranberry holocaust
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